For much of the afternoon, a young girl wandered around the store strumming and plucking at something between a ukelele and a mandolin. She had just bought it and had no experience playing it, but since the instrument had only four strings and a pleasant timbre, what she played as she experimented with putting fingers down in apparently random positions sounded pretty good to me. (But then, I do run a John Cage mailing list, so I’m partial to random sound.)
Much of the talk in the store, and in the conversations of workers online and elsewhere, concerned how long each of us might stay through the liquidation process. Some intend to leave immediately. Some gave notice as of two weeks from now. One person said that she’s stay as long as she could stand it. Another said that he would bail out of his store when the liquidators started moving fixtures around.
The determining factor seemed to be whether the people had been through liquidations before, and how brutal they had found the process. My intention to stay may just be due to my general pollyannaish attitude, a sense of denial, an unrealistic sense of what I’m about to encounter, or sheer stupidity. I also can’t afford to be without health insurance. So here I am, for now.
Many customers, as expected, wanted to know when we were shutting down and when the discounts would start. Many expressed shock and dismay that we were closing, though opinions differed among workers as to how genuine their condolences were.
One of my favorite customers left a message at my website. She had come in once a week, steady as clockwork, picking up the latest romance paperbacks (and usually returning one or two that she discovered that she had bought twice — I wish we had the resources and infrastructure to have helped her track this). She always had all her tools ready when she got to the registers: her Rewards Plus card, her AARP card (each of which saved her 10% on the paperbacks), the current coupon, and sufficient cash (I think — odd to realize that I don’t remember, after ringing her up for years, what form of tender she’s used).
In her message, she said that she’d come in yesterday before I got there, and had hoped to see me, to tell me that she’d enjoyed reading 19th Nervous Breakdown. But after seeing the state of things, she didn’t think she’d be coming in again. “Now,” she wrote, “I’m sitting Shiva for my favorite bookstore.”
I spent what seemed like most of the day at the registers ringing customers. In the afternoon, we steadily had between five and ten people in line. Most, it seemed, were frantically using up ancient gift cards, worried that the cards would melt away if not used immediately.
While the cards will, we think, continue to be good for the duration of the store’s existence, there was more of a chance of their literally melting into goo. The store was hot, and the area at the registers was the hottest. Even with almost opaque shades over the windows behind us, the space turned into a greenhouse.
I dealt with the heat well in the afternoon, since I was able to dart between answering calls for register backup and helping customers out on the general sales floor.
In the evening, though, I was scheduled for three hours straight there. (And “evening” here in Cleveland is an inexact term. Being pretty far north and near the western edge of our time zone, the sun sets late in summer. The sky was still pretty bright when I left at 9 PM.)
I did well for about two hours, ringing up an unending flow of customers. Each engaged me in conversation, almost all with the same questions: Are you shutting down on Friday like the newspaper said? (We aren’t, and it didn’t say that.) When is your last day? (We don’t know.) When do the discounts start? (We don’t know.) When will the current discounts end? (We don’t know.) What will you do for a living? (I don’t know.) But you make a lot of money from writing your books, right? (Hah.)
I kept up a cheerful demeanor throughout all of this, trying not to betray how worried I actually was. But each smile and “thank you” that I gave the customers wore me down a little more.
At about an hour before I was to leave, though, I had a particularly annoying, badgering customer. I’ve seen him most days that I’ve worked: tall, wiry, with a long greying beard and the standard black hat, suit, and shoes and white shirt and socks of the local extreme Orthodox communities. He usually would come in rather late and hover furtively in the Sex and Erotica section.
He stood directly behind the customer that I was ringing up, visibly annoying her.
When the paying customer darting away, he moved in, leaning across the counter and speaking as if to a conspirator. “So, nu, you’re all closing now?”
“Yes, the chain is going to close.”
“So what are the discounts?”
“No discounts now. Things are continuing as usual for now.”
“Nu, you’re closing. You have discounts.”
“No. If you have a Rewards Plus card, or have an AARP card, the usual discounts apply. But there’s nothing new yet.”
He leaned in closer. “Look, you think I’m stupid? I see all the people buying here. I know you have discounts. Why are you not telling me? You give everyone but another yid discounts?” (Yes, he knew that I’m Jewish. When I first started at the store and was living in the attempted Jewish arts colony, I wore a yarmulke. And some friends say that you can’t talk to me for more than three minutes without knowing I’m Jewish.)
“No, there are no new discounts yet. When there are, there will be big signs everywhere announcing it.”
He slammed his fist on the counter, fortunately (I guess) not shattering the glass. “This is how you treat your own people. I won’t shop here again.” He stomped out, yelling the traditional coda of the customer tantrum aria: “This is why you’re going out of business.”
Another customer came up quickly, and I had the usual apparently cheerful conversation with her. In the course of it, however, I began to feel nauseated, and found my attention and balance fading in and out.
As soon as she was gone, I asked for someone to cover the registers since I was suddenly not feeling well. Another worker immediately came up, and I headed for the breakroom. When a customer stomped into my path and started bellowing questions, I darted around her and away. This wasn’t my usual mode, but I figured that throwing up in her shoes would not be effective customer service.
I got to the breakroom, and sat down, then quickly got up and ran to the bathroom. Fortunately, it was a non-emitting queasiness, so I returned to the breakroom, got a cup of water, and sat.
After about fifteen minutes, I felt able to return to the floor. I spotted my manager, and he agreed to let me handle the floor while another worker finished my register shift.
I had the expected rapid succession of customers, and felt a little better. But when a customer really engaged me, looking for some particular books on both jazz and Judaica, the queasiness went away entirely and. while feeling quite tired, I completely got into the swing of things. (I also pitched The Book of Voices to her. She loved the concept, so I showed it to her, disclosed that I wrote it, but also told her that I would not be at all offended if she decided against buying it. She later came up to me to say that she wouldn’t get it immediately, but would google me to find out more.)
When the end of the hour came, I escaped the gauntlet of customers, clocked out and headed to the bus. At the stop, several people asked me the same questions, and I gave the same answers. But it all seemed a bit easier outdoors in the slightly cooler summer breeze.